God always Shines....even when your car breaks down.

So, I spent most of the day at Dorins today. Dorin, Jody and I took Tanner to see Santa which was cool. We went to a local Animal Feed Store which has an outside covered area, and they had this Country Christmas theme set up with Santa, and of course a professional photographer to take pictures. It was nice though because they had bails of hay on each side of Santa (and Santa was sitting on one too) so a child didn't HAVE to sit on Santas lap to get a picture.

First off, I took him up to Santa, I then sat down next to Santa and put Tanner in my lap and Santa got out a book and we were all reading it together. The photographer got some really good pictures of that. Then Dorin came into the picture and we had Tanner stand up next to Santa with Dorin standing behind Tanner and me standing on the side of Tanner and we got a couple cute shots of that, then I got out of the picture and Jody got in and we got cute shots of that too. Jody is so generous. I knew she was going to be wanting to buy a picture, but she totally bought the most expensive package so that I (well Dorin and I, but Dorin just told me to pick what I liked) could pick a picture that we liked of all of us and get a package of it. The package that she purchased was called the "Best Deal Package" and it came with any 2 packages and a CD of all the pictures taken from the sitting with Santa...all for $40.25....which I thought was kind of expensive, but then again I have never bought professional pictures before.

Jody completely included me on all the choices, she asked me what two packages we should get, there were like 5 different packages (1 package had just 1 8X10...another had 2 5X7s...etc), so I suggested to her that since Dorin, Tanner and I are already going to be getting our Christmas pictures done soon, we didn't need an 8X10 but that maybe she should get an 8X10 of her,Dorin and Tanner since she wasnt going to be going to the Christmas pictures with us. She totally thought that was a good idea and chose the picture she liked the best of the 3 of them in an 8X10...and then she was just like, okay so what package do you want? So I got to choose what picture I liked the best of Dorin, Tanner and I and picked the package I wanted, I contemplated getting some wallets, but I knew that we would be getting plenty of them when we get our Christmas pictures done, so I just chose the package with 2 5X7s. I told her I had cash, but she told me not to worry about it. It was so sweet of her.

After that we just all went home and Tanner was completely ready for his nap, he went right to sleep when we got home. I decided to also take a little nap before I had to work at 4:30, So, when I woke up, I got ready for work, and said goodbye.

Well, I was like 2/3rds of my way to work, on Meridian, and my car starts to die...thankfully slowly. I noticed because I couldnt accelerate, so I got in the slow lane, noticed that my engine light was on, and turned into the first turn off I saw (which was really hard because all of a sudden my power steering wouldnt work either!)....and lucky for me...it was an auto parts store! I almost made it completely into the parking lot before my car completely died, so a couple of guys that worked there pushed me the rest of the way in. I immediately called my work and told them that my car had died, but luckily I was at an auto parts store, and that a guy from the store was looking at my car so I would probably be late.

Well, the guy couldnt figure out what was wrong with it, he said the only way to find out what was wrong was to get it towed to a body shop. I thought, Great!. So I called my work again and said that I was pretty much screwed, that the guy had no idea what was wrong with my car, and that I didnt really know how I would get there without having to call someone from Graham to come and get me (and then leaving my car in the dark for the night!), and that I wouldnt have a car to get to work with tomorrow (for a double shift) if I didnt get this taken care of. I really didnt want to leave my car just sitting there all night, and I thought they would tell me to just get my car taken care of and not worry about coming in, but for some reason they said, "Well, we will just worry about tomorrow tomorrow, but we need you to get here as soon as you can." And I was kind of like, "Okay, well its gonna be a while, I need to call someone to come and get me." and blah, blah, blah.

I was irritated that they really still needed me to come in (when in my mind, I knew I wouldnt even be working for very long anyway), so I called Dorin, told him what happened, and asked him if him and his dad could come and get me and take me to work. He said they were on their way. I then called my dad, told him what happened, and asked him if he could call his mechanic to come look at my car. Luckily, my dads mechanic was home and my dad said that him and the mechanic would come look at my car while I was at work. Thank God.

So, Dorin and his dad get there and look at my car for a few minutes, Dorins dad guessed it was the timing belt.

Once I get to work, I have to worry about somehow finding a ride home, because I didnt want to have to make Dorins dad come and get me again, and I knew my dad would be busy working on my car so he couldnt come get me. Thankfully, a super sweet friend and co-worker of mine Chloe told me that she would give me a ride home, and she didnt seem annoyed by the idea either. She is just so super sweet.

Anyway, I only had 3 tables and then Chloe got phased so I had to find someone who also got phased to stay for me so that I could get a ride with Chloe (who by the way, only lives like 3 minutes from work, so it was totally out of her way to take me home but she was still super sweet about it anyway). Thank God, I found someone.

So Chloe, her dad, and I all start on the way to Graham. We stopped at Auto Zone (the place my car was) to see if my dad and the mechanic were still there, but they werent. So, I got into my car to see if it would start, and it still wouldnt! I was so frustrated because I knew that it had to be something kind of serious then.

I then immediately called my house and my dad had just gotten home. He told me that the timing belt had snapped and it would take a couple of days to fix, plus we have to get it towed to the mechanics house. I asked him if he could pick me up at Safeway so Chloe and her dad didnt have to drive me all the way home (because the farther we were going towards my house, the more it started to snow harder!) and he said yes.

So I gave Chloe some money (which I had to force her to take) for gas and waited at Safeway for my dad. Once him and Cheryl got there I felt alot better, like everything was going to be okay. I was with family, and my dad said that I could use his van (or even his new truck!--which I would never drive) to drive to work and stuff until my car is fixed. That was such a relief.

I dont have a day off until Friday, but atleast I have a vechile to get there until my car gets fixed.

In the end, I realized that God was definately still in control of the situation even though it sucked. He blessed me with the fact of breaking down right next to an auto parts store that also gave me premission to leave my car there overnight, he blessed me with amazing people that took time out of their own days to drive me to and from work, he blessed me with a great dad who took care of getting my car diagnosed while I was working, he blessed me with someone at work who was nice enough to stay a couple extra hours so that I could get a ride home, and he blessed me with a vehcile to drive while my car is out of commission.

God is awesome, even when I think the situation sucks, He still shines through.

Night Night.

PS. I will put up the Santa pictures as soon as I get them from Jody.

Great Day!

This day was wonderful (Friday). Both Dorin and I had the day off, along with both his parents, so Jody and I planned to have a "cookie day" and make cookies together all day. The purpose of this was for a few reasons: 1" She is really sincerely trying to help me learn how to cook and bake more (my mom never taught me), 2) Having cookies made for her upcoming Work Christmas party on Sunday, and 3)to just have fun and make cookies together.

I got there around 11am. It was perfect timing, as soon as I got there Jody had just gotten home from the store where she picked up the rest of the ingredients we needed for the cookies we were making. We planned on making 4 different kinds of cookies today: these cherry bars Jody loved as a child, peanut butter oatmeal chocolate chip, chocolate no-bake cookies, and fudge.

Well, we only made the cookies and saved the fudge for another day because the peanut butter oatmeal chocolate chip cookies took alot longer than expected due to the thickness and cumbliness of them while we were trying to form them into cookies, but once they baked they were perfect (we were fearful that they would fall apart).

While we were making cookies Dorin and his dad were outside doing some things together. Once they came in and we finished the cookies, it was time for a little bit of housework. Dorins house is NEVER messy, but its that way because we all keep it really clean and straightened up. I decided I would vacume the entire house (like I have done many times) because I thought that would really help Jody out...I know she doesnt enjoy vacuuming the carpet and floors, so I did it. She didnt thank me but I think she really appreciated it because like 10 minutes after that she came into Dorins room where we were both making the bed and folding laundry, and she said, "So, would you guys like to go pick up Tanner together and then go to the Spaghetti Factory for dinner?" and we both were like, "Yeah!" I just thought it would be super nice and fun, plus its one of Dorins alltime favorite restaurants and we have never been there together, so I was really excited to go.

So, we went to pick up Tanner from daycare at about 2:30-3pm, and headed to Tacoma for dinner, Dorin and I thought it was a little early for going to dinner, but his dad likes to eat kind of early, plus we didnt have to want to wait forever for a table, so we headed to Tacoma. Well, when we got there, we realized from the sign on the door that the restaurant didn't open for dinner until 5pm...and it was only 3:50, so we decided to go to Freighthouse Square right down the street for a little while, and just walk around and look in the little shops until it was time for dinner.

When we got to Freighthouse Square, Tanner was definately ready to get out of the car, he wasn't fussy or anything but 45 minutes is definately longer than he is used to be in the car at one time (atleast when he is with us), so we started to walk around. The place was really empty, like almost zero people, which I thought was kind of weird, but also good because we had lots of room to run around. We walked around for a while but got bored kind of quickly, Jody said that the place had really gone down hill since the last time she had been there, and I could understand why. There wasn't much to look at, but it was still kind of fun and it wasted time.

So, finally we go back to the restaurant for dinner and there are tons of people in the lobby already waiting, thankfully there is still one bench open (right next to a lightened-up Chistmas tree) to we all sat down, I sat right next to the Christmas tree with Tanner so he would stay entertained (we still had like 20 minutes until we could get seated because it wasnt 5pm yet). The tree worked as a distraction for a little bit, but then we had to get some his toys out of the diaper bag so he could play. During this time, I also took him to the bathroom to change his diaper just for something to do to waste time...lol.

Once we were seated, Tanner started to get restless for a little while but he quickly calmed down. He is alot more behaved than some other children I have seen his age at Red Robin. He just played with his toys and stuff until the food came. We were happy because he really liked his food (sometimes he will hardly eat anything), but he ate pretty good. We got him milk to drink, spaghetti with meat sauce and applesauce (which they brought first, which was good). Then of course we all got spumoni ice cream for dessert which was so yummy! Tanner didnt eat one bite of his (he isn't really into sweets, he would much rather have fruit than a cookie or ice cream). Overall, it was such a nice dinner. But I have to say, I have noticed that going out to dinner once you have a young child to take care of and be responsible for is ALOT different than just going out to dinner with adults. Most of my time was filled with making sure than Tanner was behaving, not eating his crayons (LOL), and not choking on his food (I have a phobia about that). I mean, I really did still super enjoy myself, and of course Dorin helped ALOT too, but its just different once you have a child, your focus is more on your child than on conversation.

But like I said, overall it was such a nice dinner.

Once we got home, we showed Tanner the lit up Christmas tree and all the Christmas decorations and then pretty much immediately gave him a bath. We knew he was getting tired (even though it was only 7pm), he had had a long day at daycare and then was out with us for the night so I thought he would really enjoy (even more than usual) a nice bath, which he did. He loves his baths. He loves to play and just be in the water. After that was jammy time...so we got him in his jammies and then we all decided to rent "Fred Clause" off of On Demand and watch it. Whenever we watch a movie all together out in the living room Dorin and I take most of the blankets and pillows off his bed and make a bed out on the floor for him, Tanner, and I.

It was such a good and funny movie. Tanner had grapes (his absolute favorite) while watching the movie...and played for the rest of the time while we were watching it, so I didn't get to catch all of the movie, but I got most of it. It was a really good Christmas movie...completely funny but also a good Christmas movie.

After the movie, Tanner said goodnight to Nana and Papa and we went into our room for bedtime. Tanner and I now have a tradition that I sing him Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star (his favorite song) to him while he is falling asleep, and if I stop before his is asleep, he will say "Please" which means for me to keep singing. It really works good for him falling asleep, the past couple weekends I have started singing it to him and he has been falling asleep alot faster.

After Tanner fell asleep Dorin and I just snuggled and watched some TV.

Overall, it was a really, really good day.

I really consider Dorins family my immediate family more than my own family right now, due to some things going on at home. I am always at Dorins, the only time I am here is when I sleep. I guess my dad and I have a kind of relationship where we just cant live together, so Im really looking forward to saving money like crazy after Christmas and moving out with Dorin on our own again. We have already started looking at houses and apartments. We would prefer to rent a house, but we like some appartments too.

Okay well goodnight.

Unappreciated Help

Tonight was frustrating, but I'm learning to not let things bug me as much as they used to. Here is was happened.

Dorin and I both had today off, I called off of work because it was going to be slow and his boss was having surgery so he didn't have to work. So, I slept in for a bit, talked to Cheryl for an hour, got dressed and went over to Dorins house.

Well, when I got there Jody was home because she didn't work til' 3 pm (she worked 3pm to 7 pm tonight). I got there about 1:30. Dorin and I decided to go out to lunch about 15 minutes after I got there so we went and got teriaki, ate, and came home. Well, I had leftovers of my fried rice because they gave me so much, so I asked her if she would like to take it to work so she could eat on her break, but she said no because she had just eaten.

Anyway, on our way home from getting lunch we saw a "For Rent" sign on a house at the end of Dorins little road (which is super, super close to his parents house, like probably 10 seconds driving distance) but I got the number anyway and called when we got back home. I called on it and got the information about it, but later Dorin told me that he thought it was too close to his parents house and he didn't want to schedule an appointment to look at it or anything. I agreed after thinking about it.

Well, right before Jody left for work she told Dorin that she wanted him to take out the garbage and recyling, clean up Tanners room, clean the guest bathroom, and clean up his own room (which wasn't even messy at all), put up and assemble the Christmas tree (its fake) and she also mentioned, "And the carpet couldn't hurt being vacuumed either." It kind of irritated me that she told him to do all those things because she had been sitting at home ALL day on the couch doing NOTHING. Why couldn't she vacuum? But, I understand that Dorin had the day off and she had to work (on of the 2 days a week that she works) so she wanted Dorin to do housework. Also, she likes Dorin to help out around the house ALOT which he does.

So anyway, she left for work. Well, we decided that we wanted to go down to Orting to look at houses down there that were for rent (we are planning to move within 2-3 months max). After we were done looking at the houses, we decided to go to town to Costco to get this cookbook for his mom for Christmas that she wants.

While we were there, he was very considerate (in my opinion) and called her at work and asked her if she needed anything at Costco. She told him to get milk and to get something easy for dinner. Well, he got the milk but we really couldn't find anything for dinner that she would really like, so we left.

We came home around 5:30pm and started on the list of chores. I took out the garbage and recyling bins, cleaned the guest bathroom, started to clean up Tanners room, he put up and assembled the tree, vacuumed the floor, we cleaned up his room together, and did everything else that she asked. In addition to that, I also took the clothes out of the dryer for her and folded them, I started a load of her laundry for her that was in the alundry room, I put the dishes that were in the sick in the dishwasher and started it, I put away the clean dishes that were in the dish rack (that we hand wash), I wiped down all the counters, I tidied up the living room, I fed the dog, Dorin fed the outside dog, and I fed the cat. I pretty much did EVERYTHING I could think of so that the house was completely SPOTLESS when she got home so that she would be in a good mood, and I was happy that I had done something nice for her.

Well, when she got home it seemed like she didn't even notice all the work I/we did. Instead of being appreciative for everything that we had done, she was automatically in a horrible mood because there was nothing made for her for dinner. She was in such a bad mood, she even said to Dorins dad, "Well it pisses me off that I come home from work and have to figure out something to eat for dinner." Well, its not like she had to make dinner for all of us. We had all already eaten. Dorin and I had leftovers from our lunch, and Dorins dad made himself some chili when he got home from work about 20 minutes before Jody.

I was just so frustrated, she was in a horrible mood for the rest of the night. Not one thank you, not even one ACKNOWEDGEMENT that we had done anything, even though we had done everything AND some. But I know for a fact that if we HADN'T done EVERYTHING on that list of chores, she would have completely bitched about it, its like she will totally complain if it doesn;t get done, but doesn't even say thank you for it getting done.

I mean, I don't even live there and I was doing her household cleaning chores for her..and she acted like I didn't exist because Dorin and I didn't pick up anything for dinner. Its like instead of being grateful and appreciative for everything that we DID do for her, she immediately is negative and pissed off about the ONE thing that we DIDN'T do.

I don't know, it just kind of bugs me. I know it shouldn't. I have done tons of cleaning things in her house right in front of her before while not living there and NOT ONCE has she EVER said "Thank You" or even acknowledged that I did anything.

Whatever. Another Day in the Life I guess.

Dorin is amazing though, he is the sweetest boyfriend in the world and I am so grateful and blessed to have him in my life, so even if I have to deal with these kinds of things for the rest of my life (because I know I will), its okay because to me, he and our relationship is completely worth it to me.

You take the good with the bad I guess.

Thank the Lord my Life is No Longer Like This

Here are the lyrics I heard to a song by Rhianna right after I became clean. These lyrics really told my story of drug addiction. Read them and think about what your life would be like if your life was this song. It's called "Disturbia".

what's wrong with me?
why do i feel like this?
i'm going crazy now

no more gas in the rig
can't even get it started
nothing heard, nothing said
can't even speak about it
all my life on my head
don't want to think about it
feels like i'm going insane
yeah

it's a thief in the night
to come and grab you
it can creep up inside you
and consume you
a disease of the mind
it can control you
it's too close for comfort

throw on your break lights
we're in the city of wonder
ain't gonna play nice
watch out, you might just go under
better think twice
your train of thought will be altered
so if you must faulter be wise
your mind is in disturbia
it's like the darkness is the light
disturbia
am i scaring you tonight
your mind is in disturbia
ain't used to what you like
disturbia
disturbia

bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

faded pictures on the wall
it's like they talkin' to me
disconnectin' your call
your phone don't even ring
i gotta get out
or figure this shit out
it's too close for comfort


it's a thief in the night
to come and grab you
it can creep up inside you
and consume you
a disease of the mind
it can control you
i feel like a monster

throw on your break lights
we're in the city of wonder
ain't gonna play nice
watch out, you might just go under
better think twice
your train of thought will be altered
so if you must faulter be wise
your mind is in disturbia
it's like the darkness is the light
disturbia
am i scaring you tonight
your mind is in disturbia
ain't used to what you like
disturbia
disturbia

release me from this curse
i've been trying to maintain
but i'm struggling
you can't go, go, go
i think i'm going to oh, oh, oh

throw on your break lights
we're in the city of wonder
ain't gonna play nice
watch out, you might just go under
better think twice
your train of thought will be altered
so if you must faulter be wise
your mind is in disturbia
it's like the darkness is the light
disturbia
am i scaring you tonight
your mind is in disturbia
ain't used to what you like
disturbia
disturbia



You know, lately I have been thinking alot about where I was and what my life was like at this time last year, and it just makes me terribly sad and overwhelmingly rejiousful at the exact same time. I know that sounds weird but I am so sad I allowed by life to be like it was, but at so greatful that I am no longer living that kind of life whatsoever.

I think about the people I knew, the people I hung out with, and I really want to cry for them. The life I led was a very dark and lonely one, and I had people all around me. My best friend was my drug. Thats really all I thought about, all I really cared about, and all I did. My life seriously revolved around painkillers, and now that I think back with a clear head, it makes me cry.

I wasted so much precious time. Time that could have been spent in college, time spent maintaining and making new relationships with friends and loved ones. I just cannot believe it, I cannot believe I allowed my life to be like it was.

Now, like I said, I think about all those people that I used to know. I have not talked to a single one since I got clean because I refuse to for the sake of my sobriety. My heart aches for those people. If they could only see what I see now. If they could only see how life is so much better without the drug and the control of it. Life is so much more free. You can laugh, cry, and smile without having to be in a drug induced state. You can go out and have fun without having to be high. You can plan activities and actually look forward to them, instead of only looking forward to one thing-getting high. You can maintain a job and love it. You can look at yourself with so much more respect and integrity knowing that you threw your old dark life in the trash where it belongs. You can think about other things, you can actually have a life, and being on drugs, its just not possible.
If there was one thing I could tell everyone who has the same addiction that I had is that there IS hope, there is a life after the drug, and its a MUCH better life. I wish that everyone overcame drug addiction, but the sad fact is that alot of people die from the same actions I was taking on a daily basis.

I consider myself a miracle, because I know that alot of people never overcome the addiction that I had. It's so strong and so addicting that it seriously does take over your mind, BUT it really isn't as strong as YOU. I promise you that. And I can tell you that with all honesty because I have lived through it. I have been through the darkest of days with my addiction and I know how much it hurts, but now I have also seen that there is hope and life after getting clean.

For ANYONE who is reading this and just needs someone to talk to, please do not hesitate to contact me, you can even contact me anonsymously. And trust me, you will not shock me with anything you tell me, I have either done or had people in my life who took it to the absolute limits, so I promise you there is nothing I cannot try to help you deal with.

Staying Positive

Okay so I have thinking alot lately...mostly about my negative attitude about eveything, but mostly the Jody situation.

Bottom Line, I need to stop.

I have so many amazing blessings in my life, and I need to start focusing completely on them, and to be honest, although I complain about her alot, Jody is one of those blessings. She is a huge source of advice and support.

The past couple days have been awesome and I have decided to stop "competing" with her, and just try to make her happy, because even though her opinions might not mesh with mine, it always turns out to be a better situation when I just go with the flow and not fight it.

Dorin and I have decided that him, I, and Tanner will all wear Red instead of Green in our Christmas pictures, not because that is what Jody wants, but we went to like 3 different stores and they really didn't have many cute green shirts for neither Dorin, I or Tanner. Plus, Tanner and I already had red shirts we could wear in the picture so all we had to get was Dorins shirt, which we purchased tonight while Christmas shopping.

Dorin and I had a wonderful night tonight. We went Christmas shopping for a while and then came home and Tanner was already there because Jody picked him up from daycare. The poor little guy is still not feeling very well so he was very clingy...especially to me, which I didn't mind, but by the end of the night I felt like my arm was going to fall off from holding him for like 5 hours straight.

It was so sweet though, I could tell he was really tired at about 8pm but he was completely fighting it. So, I took him in Dorins room alone, and just held him standing up. He fussed for like 30 seconds and then he just put his head on my shoulder and I just rocked back and forth, rubbed his back, and sang him "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" (one of his favorite songs). No joke, Dorin came in about 1 minute later, and I immediately motioned to Dorin to not talk or anything (thinking that Tanner was not asleep yet, since it had only been MAYBE 1 minute since he laid his head on my shoulder) and Dorin came over to me, looked at Tanner, and said, "He's asleep." I was like, "Are you serious?!?!". I can't believe he fell asleep so fast, so I just layed him down in our bed and he has been sleeping ever since.

I love my family, I mean I know they are not my "official" family yet, but I consider Dorin and Tanner my family. They are the closest people to me, and the people that I am going to spend forever with, so to me, they are my family.

I am so blessed by being with such an amazingly supportive guy who puts up with all my complaints sometimes. He just listens, just like I need him to. I tell him and other people all the time that he was seriously "custom made" for me. And I seriously believe that. Also, I am also so blessed to be able to take part in raising the most amazing little boy God has ever created. He amazes me and cracks me up everyday, and I could never see my life without either him or Dorin again.

I'm so happy for my New Forever!

"Let Your Will be Done"

I have always been the biggest worry wort in the world...seriously. Anything that happens in my life or in a loved ones life I always think the absolute worst...and I really hate that about myself.

BUT for the last couple of years I have learned when I pray to ALWAYS say, "Lord, let Your will be done." Sometimes its really, really hard to say but I always do, because in the end I know His will is the best.

Tonight my dad got sick...and he is never sick. He woke up about two hours ago and started throwing up and he really doesn't feel good at all. As soon as I found out and saw him I lost my appetite (I was eating ice cream), not because I saw him vomit (because I didn't) but solely from nerves and anxiety. I thought the worst, like we might have to call 911 and something might seriously be wrong. I don't know why I immediately think of the worst result, but I always do.

Anyway, I have prayed to the Lord, "Let Your will be done." in other situations as well. For instance, I will pray to him about the issue, pray for a positive outcome, but end with "But Lord, just let Your will be done no matter what that is."

I have realized that sad and tragic things happen in life, and I have experienced and will experience more of these situations, but I know in my heart that those tragic and heartbreaking situations are going to be God's will because He is always in control, even when we think he is not.

It puts me at peace to know that even though this world is so big and has so many bigger problems than just the problems in my life, I have the security and assurance that He still loves me enough to know the number of hairs on my head and is with me in every situation, good and bad.

Trust in God, even when its hard, because in the end, He will be your absolute comfort.

Stroller Insanity!

Okay so seriously I am already getting really sick of having something negative to blog about everyday about Jody but this one tops the list for the month so I guess I should blog about it and get it out.

Well, I posted last night that Josy said she wouldnt watch Tanner today because she was going shopping...but she didn't. She just sat on her ass at home and did nothing...like usual.

Well, Dorin got off work early so I headed over there around 2pm. Well, when I got there I remembered that I needed to call JCPennys to make an appointment for Tanner, Dorin, and I to get our Christmas photos taken. Well, Dorin and I had decided that we would all wear a shade of green (instead of red, since everyone seems to wear red for Christmas pictures).

Well, Dorin and I were talking in the kitchen and Jody was in the living room sitting on her ass and she kept butting into our conversation saying, "Well, can I give you my opinion??!?!?" Well, why would she even ask that?? Even if we said "NO!" she would have anyway. Either way though, she tried to tell us what time to make the appointment, where to go, what day to go, and then came the clothing crisis.

Jody had bought Tanner this red plaid looking long-sleeved collered shirt a while back and I guess she bought it solely for him to get his Christmas pictures taken in. Well, like I said before, our theme was green and she had a bitch fit about that!! I don't understand that woman! I mean, she buys a shirt for her grandson and then just EXPECTS Dorin and I (who are paying for these pictures) to dress him in it for his pictures because SHE wants him to wear it??? I don't freakin' so. So, she was pissed about that but Dorin didn't give in.

I got really mad and as I was leaving go to hang out with Kristen for a little bit I told Dorin I was going to just call JCPennys back and tell them we will all be wearing red instead and he said, "No honey, you and I decided on green, who cares what she wants, she's not paying for the pictures!!". So I was happy about that.

Then I went over to Kristens for about an hour and a half. It turns out that Kristen had to take Tanner to the doctor today and found out that he has an ear infection (poor guy!). But when I was there he was totally acting like himself so I don't think it's hurting him much now that he is on antibiotics. Kristen, her mom, and I all talked about my frustrations with Jody and I kind of got some validation because they both agreed with me that she is overbearing and tries to be way too involved.

Anyway, after I left Kristens I went back to Dorins house and the SECOND I walked in Jody wanted to know everything. I told her I had to pee really quick...because I did!! When I was done I went into Dorins bedroom to change into pajama pants really quick and I was in the middle of shutting the door and she comes up again and said, "So, wahts the deal with Tanner!!??". And by this time I was annoyed because I had only been in the house less than 1 minute and she had already asked me TWICE. I said, "I was going to change my clothes really quick." And she got kind of pissy and said just said ,"Oh." and I just shut the door and changed.

When I was done, I went out to the living room/kitchen and told her and Dorin that Tanner had an ear infection and that the doctor also gave him a breathing treatment. I didn't go into detail because I didn't know much detail. And Jody asks me (in a very snotty tone), "Well, is he going to daycare tomorrow??!" And I said, "I don't know, I didn't ask." And I turned back to Dorin and was kind of tlaking to him about other things for like 2 seconds. And she just says, "Well I guess I will just have to call her myself!!!!!!" And she immediately goes to her room and SLAMS the door!! I just started laughing.

When she talked to Kristen she decided that she wants to take Tanner tomorrow. So she told Dorin that he needed to get Tanners stoller (by the way, the one MY mom got us) out of the studio, wipe it down (even though it wasnt dirty) and put it in the back of her truck for her. No please of course. Just demands. Well, Dorin wanted to watch the last bit of a show that was on and after 30 minutes Jody starts SCREAMING at Dorin that he has no respect for her and that he needs to find a new place to live soon because "this is our house". All because he didn't IMMEDIATELY follow her demands and go get the stroller.

First of all, my thoughts are doesn't she have legs that work?? Couldn't of she went out and got the stroller on her own?? And then to just completely overeact like that was completely uncalled for. I mean it was an all out screaming fest on her end. She said that Dorin doesn't respect her, and blah blah blah. ALL OVER A DAMN STROLLER!

And it's not like he was ignoring her and wasn't going to do it, he was planning on doing it for her, but she didn't need the stroller till TOMORROW morning so he thought he could atleast finish watching his show really quick.

Whatever. She is just a overeacting bitch! I have never seen a bigger drama queen.

Between the bitchfit about Tanners ugly Christmas shirt, the demand of information I didn't even have, and the complete blowup over NOTHING just proves what I have known all along...she is a psychotic, know it all, controlling bitch!

Actions Speak Louder than Words, Right??

This weekend when we had Tanner, he had a cough and by Sunday he really didn't feel good. We went to the store and bought him Childrens Tyenol Cough & Congestion (or something like that) but it didnt seem to help that much. Well, Kristen called me Monday night and told me that Tanners Daycare had called her at 9am (2 hours after she dropped him off) and told her that she needed to come and get him, that he had developed a fever, and that he couldn't return to daycare for 24 hours.

Well, I had to work today so I couldn't watch him (Kristen goes to college everyday), Dorin obviously has to work so he couldn't watch him, but Josy didn't have to work so I told Kristen to just call Jody, explain the situation, and that I was sure she would be more than happy to watch Tanner.

Well, by the time I got to Dorins house after he got off work, she told us that she wasn't going to watch Tanner because she wanted to go shopping with her friend. Oh my gosh!! Are you serious!!

She always says how Tanner should be number one on everyones priority list, and that he should always come first. Those are her words, but when push comes to shove her actions prove her motives differently in my opinion.

Even Dorins dad said, "Well, aren't you going to the mall Wednesday too?" and all she said was, "Yeah, but I want to go tomorrow too." Even her husband seemed confused.

Oh well, I have realized that I really am super negative when it comes to Jody. I pounce on anything she does wrong, and I know thats not good or healthy. I don't know why I have such a big problem with her, but I need to stop complaining.

I wrote this blog in order to get all these feelings out, but then I look at my friends blogspot sites and they are all positive and upbeat, and here I am just being frustated and complaining in most of all my posts.

Some of my Favorites!

Dinner and Dessert

Most of today was stressful. One of my absolute best friends is in town from Utah with her husband and 3 step children (who I hadn't met yet) for the Thanksgiving weekend. Well I have been working double shifts so much lately that I had to try to get someone to cover my night shift tonight so our families could have dinner and dessert together.

One of my wonderful co-workers said she would work for me if she did not get called in to work tonight, but of course she did get called in so I had to rush up to work and see if anyone would be willing to work a double (this is after calling everyone from work that I had programmed into my phone). Finally I convinced my co-worker Kristen to work a very short shift for me tonight, plus I agreed to pay her $40 for doing it since she really didn't want to.

Anyway, all that stress and that loss of $40 was completely worth it! I had such a great night with Lacey, her husband Josh, his 3 children Dallen, Brianna, and Kylee, Laceys parents, our mutual friend Laura, Dorin, Tanner and I. We had such an awesome time. We had very yummy spaghetti for dinner and then I brought chocolate cake and ice cream for dessert.

It was first and for most so amazing and awesome to see Lacey again, I haven't seen in her in over 2 years. Plus she just found out a few weeks ago that she and Josh are expecting their first child!! I am SO excited for them! Plus the thought of my little Lacey having a baby just brings tears to my eyes.

Tanner was of course shy at first, but he warmed up to everyone as usual. We all sat around and talked about everything and anything. I just can't express how NEEDED it was. I missed her so much, and I loved meeting Josh and the kids. I really like her hubby Josh too, he seems like a really awesome and personable guy...and he even got Dorin to talk which is a huge bonus for Josh because Dorin is really shy.

Right before we were getting ready to leave Lacey and I were talking inside and Josh and Dorin went outside for a little bit and talked guy talk. It made me so happy that Dorin talked guy talk to one of my best friends husbands!

On our way home Dorin even said that we wanted to go visit them sometime in the next year or so...and I was so happy and suprised by that! He and Josh I think share an interest in Jeeps, which can keep Dorin talking for hours.

Overall, I loved tonight and I just wish I could have spent more time with Lacey. I'm so happy though because she will be home again in the Spring for her baby shower...where I will probably buy her so many presents they probably won't even all fit in the car! =)

I will post pictures from tonight tomorrow. I accidentally left my camera in Tanners diaper bag at Dorins house.